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Getting out The Front Door..

Getting out that front door…can be one of the hardest things I do all day, and some days I don’t even manage.

I am scared of leaving the house, its my safe, though slightly lonely and boring, place. But don’t underestimate the power of the safe place. The further I am from the house the more unsafe I feel, the more anxiety I have.

I am ok with going with my husband in the car. The car acts as a mini safe house, and usually we take familiar routes or I’m in charge of the map, and I know exactly where we are, which makes me calmer. But long trips are hard.

Its easier going outside with company I trust, then I can also manage to go further because they distract/calm me enough for me to not spend all energy on thinking about bad stuff that could happen, (fainting in a bush and not being discovered) or being in a heightened state of awareness (how long till I can get home, how much time) all the time.

But going outside myself, it’s a struggle. That door, that hallway, it’s a bottleneck for all my anxiety. What I won’t do to postpone passing through it.

I must have a drink, pee, lip balm, do I have my phone, is it charged, are the bunnies secure, I have the wrong socks, do I need a hat, what temperature is it, which route should I take, forest or road, how long, what If I meet someone, are the neighbours home to see me…

hallway

Sometimes this takes so long that it starts raining, I get hungry, decide to make dinner instead or just plain give up.

When I am finally outside I usually feel much better, and when I get walking, in nice weather with my headphones playing positive upbeat music, I sometimes even forget to be anxious. From time to time.

If I walk the same familiar route, when I know exactly how long it is, and how long it should take, I like walking.
When I get to walk totally alone, where no one can see me, I like walking.
When I feel my muscles working and feel strong, I like walking.
When I get to feel I’m one with the landscape around me, I like walking.

But the anxiety comes back when I start to feel tired, or start to think of exactly how far I have to go to get back home, how much time, how many steps.

Forest

When I walk in the forest, the anxiety lightens. I have to concentrate more not to stumble on something, there are animals to see, plants and trees, and I usually walk by my very favourite lake.

summer

Taking a break on the little run down pier and feeling the water, putting my feet in when it’s not too cold, that helps. Its like the forest has a calm, serene aura that puts a dampener on feelings, especially negative ones. And the lake gives me positive energy, enough to get home. This works best alone.

But that door…


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Icy day

I took the camera out this sunny Saturday by the icy lake Ömmern. I’m learning and trying, but I mostly stayed in auto mode on the camera. But it was very beautiful. Anyway it was a great day and I am so glad we got out to this lovely place because Sunday was all foggy and grey.img_9915img_9923img_9889img_9881img_9850


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Rule of Thirds

As I learn more and more about photography I found this great tutorial by Alishia of Just Leesha  about the “Rule of thirds”, on the Simple as That blog.

Original photo.
I love this photo, its not that sharp, because its taken with an Iphone and cold shaky hands. But its so me. I love water, and if I can’t bathe and swim, I settle for standing in it in rubber boots. 🙂img_0731

Photo cropped with the “rule of thirds” advice. And its instantly more pleasing to the eye, right. thirds1

Here I have painted in the rule of thirds grid, and you can see I have placed the focus of the picture, the rubber boots, in the intersection of two of the lines. I have even tried to make my left leg follow one of the lines, as good as possible. thirds2

 


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Mirror Forest

“Forest forest in the lake…”

Stunning light on the trees, water still as a mirror only decorated with shards of delicate ice edges.


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Happy Friday

Friday

I’m just going to leave you with some nature photos today. Its been really cold and fall like, and I thought summer was over. But today it was hot and lovely, so I just soaked in the summer. I’m so glad it wasn’t over!

Well that’s practically all of my clothespins, which reminds me, I should go take them in! IMG_3164

Painting my toenails and letting my hair air dry, sitting in the shade where I am most comfortable. 🙂IMG_3167

Perfect little acorns forming, camera not  focusing.
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And rowan berries, there are loads of those about right now.
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It turned really dark and sinister all of a sudden. IMG_3176

And then the sun came out again, that’s how it is living close to the sea. IMG_3185

Artsy fartsy picture of the weathered pier that is my happy place. IMG_3187

The cutest little vacation house! My clematis certainly does not look like that! IMG_3171

“My” sheep, with the side of my house, with my apple trees and lilac hedge. IMG_3188

And then I came home to this little beauty! It was windy today. I guess we know what we are doing this weekend. Firewood!DSC03117


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