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Getting out The Front Door..

Getting out that front door…can be one of the hardest things I do all day, and some days I don’t even manage.

I am scared of leaving the house, its my safe, though slightly lonely and boring, place. But don’t underestimate the power of the safe place. The further I am from the house the more unsafe I feel, the more anxiety I have.

I am ok with going with my husband in the car. The car acts as a mini safe house, and usually we take familiar routes or I’m in charge of the map, and I know exactly where we are, which makes me calmer. But long trips are hard.

Its easier going outside with company I trust, then I can also manage to go further because they distract/calm me enough for me to not spend all energy on thinking about bad stuff that could happen, (fainting in a bush and not being discovered) or being in a heightened state of awareness (how long till I can get home, how much time) all the time.

But going outside myself, it’s a struggle. That door, that hallway, it’s a bottleneck for all my anxiety. What I won’t do to postpone passing through it.

I must have a drink, pee, lip balm, do I have my phone, is it charged, are the bunnies secure, I have the wrong socks, do I need a hat, what temperature is it, which route should I take, forest or road, how long, what If I meet someone, are the neighbours home to see me…

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Sometimes this takes so long that it starts raining, I get hungry, decide to make dinner instead or just plain give up.

When I am finally outside I usually feel much better, and when I get walking, in nice weather with my headphones playing positive upbeat music, I sometimes even forget to be anxious. From time to time.

If I walk the same familiar route, when I know exactly how long it is, and how long it should take, I like walking.
When I get to walk totally alone, where no one can see me, I like walking.
When I feel my muscles working and feel strong, I like walking.
When I get to feel I’m one with the landscape around me, I like walking.

But the anxiety comes back when I start to feel tired, or start to think of exactly how far I have to go to get back home, how much time, how many steps.

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When I walk in the forest, the anxiety lightens. I have to concentrate more not to stumble on something, there are animals to see, plants and trees, and I usually walk by my very favourite lake.

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Taking a break on the little run down pier and feeling the water, putting my feet in when it’s not too cold, that helps. Its like the forest has a calm, serene aura that puts a dampener on feelings, especially negative ones. And the lake gives me positive energy, enough to get home. This works best alone.

But that door…


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The value of a swimsuit?

So, I have no in-depth subject today…

I have sore muscles from an intense forest walk yesterday, that featured an adorable little horse, that made me all muddy when I was petting his nose while he was trying to eat my jacket, so worth it.
I really need to start walking regularly again, I used to be really fit for about half a year of my life, I’m such a couch potato. But I’m also getting older and feeling it in my joints, and now everything is a struggle. I don’t need to be running 10k:s or anything, I just want to have muscles enough for a healthy life, and to not feel so struggly. (Yes, I know that’s not a word) So regular forest walks it is, and some strength exercises here and there.

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I have sunny weather shining down on what is not yet spring but brown trees and yellow grass, with a promise in the air. The birds are singing it, they know. And there is a hardy plant or two peeking up in the garden. My indoor seedlings are getting along so nicely they need replanting.
I love spring, it’s the same love I have for Fridays, you have all the glory of summer, or the weekend, ahead of  you. I love that. The hay fever… not so much.

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I have a knitting project going on, I am using my own ice dyed sock yarn. Below is a video I made documenting that incredibly fun process.
It’s nice to be knitting again. I have started three socks, I think, in the last months and never got any of them finished. I just stole my favourite needles for the next sock project that did not get finished. I just stole them again for this project, but this has solid reasons to get done, so I’m confident. I say confidently!

I have a swimsuit that did not fit. Sigh, it had lovely pink fishies on it. It was the right size and everything, it was the cut of it, we were just not made for each other.
So, the search is on for another one.. I have two in mind, one pretty and not very expensive and one gorgeous and more than double the price of the first one.
How do you value a swimsuit? I do swim a lot, and I love it, its my happy place, but still, it’s not on for that many hours total. But you have to be comfortable, feel nice, and be able to do a handstand in the water. What is the value of that?

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Cover photo by: Sean


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Mirror Forest

“Forest forest in the lake…”

Stunning light on the trees, water still as a mirror only decorated with shards of delicate ice edges.


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Header Image: Check

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Picture taken with an Iphone 5s, then edited with the Enlight and Prisma apps.


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2017

2017bRight, new year, what do I want to do during 2017.

  • Ok, new header! It’s still saying blogmas for g*d sake
  • Some sort of vague “what do I want to do in 2017, no resolutions, more like a list of ideas. With pictures.
  • Ok, realising that the above point is just what I am doing so I’ll just continue with that.
  • More crafting
  • Make jewelry again.
  • More documenting of crafting
  • I want to weave that waffle kind of weaving (or learn, because I don’t know how)
  • Id still like a camera that can wi-fi/bluetooth or something over the pictures to my phone. Hint hint, there is a donate button to the right if you want to help!
  • Maybe learn more about photoshopping. It’s just that I have taken something like four courses in Photoshop and I still never learn the things I want, and I never really feel fluent in it. Does anyone?
  • Id like to upgrade my WordPress account so that I get more space, and most importantly; so that the ads are removed. If there is going to be ads, then Id like to get compensated!
  • Id like to have a Patreon account so that anyone who feel it worthwhile can help me with the point above, or rather actually activate the account, when its good enough.
  • I need a film, with me telling you, my lovely readers, that I hope are out there, why you might want to contribute and what I would do with the money.
  • I want to spinn more. Make more yarn, I do prefer spinning to knitting actually.
  • I do create a bunch of stuff so maybe I can auction off some of the stuff you have seen me make, and put the money towards that camera.
  • Finish some of the knitting patterns I have lying around, at least two are all but done.
  • Some more personal things, get out and walk! Be in the forest and the garden more.
  • Fix, paint and take more pride in my home. I’ll show you the colors I have chosen. 🙂
  • How do I get this blog thing to grow?
  • I really don’t think I am a YouTuber.
  • Feature the bunnies more.
  • Guest blogger?
  • Sketch.

That´s all I can think of now, (not that it’s not enough) which is kind of the point, you can always make more list when goals have been reached or changed.

Happy new year everyone. I sincerely hope this is a good one for you!

Love Frida


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