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Alternative Foods

I have never had a really good relationship with food, and I have often stated that if someone comes up with a food pill I will gladly give up all food, even chocolate, to not have the hassle of food. I contribute a lot of these problems with food to the fact that I have Aspergers.

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Sometimes I wanna eat only vegetables and sometimes all I want is cookies and chips, sometimes I eat to much, and sometimes I don’t eat enough. If left to my own devices I tend to slowly drift upwards in weight and then I have to go through a period of sharpening up to loose the weight again. I am always floating upwards, or fighting downwards, how come the downward periods always seem so much longer? (rhetorical question) And how do I know that I get all the nutrients I need, especially as a vegan, no I am not worried about protein.

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Well anyway, now there are alternative foods on the market. Not a “solve everything pill” but food in powder form that you make a shake out of and drink during the day. This way you are supposed to get every vitamin, protein, mineral and whatever else your body needs, without having to think about it, and you can also control you calorie intake to what suits you best.

Alternative foodsI am extremely intrigued by this idea, I might not want to switch to fluid meals all day, every day, but maybe ill just have a regular dinner, or when there just isn’t time or energy to make something nutritious, a time when I would have made an unhealthy pot of noodles or something like that. ¬†Maybe its hard to find a healthy meal when traveling, specially a vegan one. Thats a time when a fluid meal that contains all you need would come in very handy.

I have contacted a few companies that provides vegan produkts like this in Europe, and I will start making review posts about them. I am also planning to have a comparison post at the end to see what I thought, what they tasted like, what the cost were and whatever else I discover.

I hope some of you are as intrigued by this as I am. ūüôā


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With the power of a thousand suns

PictureHello people. Time for a little update. I have been absent a while and I thought I would explain why.

One of the reasons I have been absent is that I have an infection and have to take antibiotics…. I hate (with the power of a thousand suns) antibiotics! They make me permanently fatigued, I have almost fainted twice during this five day course, and terribly nauseous. So right now, my job is to take these antibiotics and everything else is a bonus.

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So no 100 days project right now.
Doing the 100 days project was more taxing than I ever imagined, and there is no letting up, of course, that is the point, but it might be too much on me who already deal with a lot of strain daily.

Like posting every day, that is just not doable. My whole day consists of the 100 days project, doing the piece, taking pictures, editing pictures, making a blog, promoting the blog.
It’s so much more work than I imagine it looks like, or I would have thought. And of course I have made all that work for myself, I could have set up an easier way to do it. Some changes are needed.

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So, solution, we (the royal we) are going back to the old posting schedule, Monday, Wednesday and Friday, and one of these days can be the weeks recap of the 100 days project. And that means I can actually write about other things too.
Just writing this feels so nice, I really like writing.
Maybe I’ll even change the schedule to Tuesday, Thursday and Saturday, since I write one day ahead… then I don’t have to have a piece finished on Sunday evening. That sounds nice, let’s go with that. ūüôā

I still hope to catch up on the 100, and I definitely don’t want to give up. I will hopefully resume when I am feeling better. I really do hope so.

I want to finish this thing!


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Bullet Journal Update

how I Bullet JournalI’m still Bullet Journaling, it is very seldom I stick to something this long. And, added bonus, and also the actual point of Bullet Journaling, it’s keeping me more organised! Yay.
I actually have a grasp of things that is happening in the future, like way in the future, seems more like I have a life now that I think/write about it.

Since I was actually sticking to it and I was getting more and more frustrated by the lines in the (really lovely, but “lines”) Rhodia notebook I was using, I decided I was ready for a “real” Bullet Journal journal. And by “real” I mean the one I wanted with dots instead of lines, seriously if you are going to do this, choose the book you love!

I got a dotted, hardback, Emerald A5 Leuchtturm 1917. With a pen holder. ūüôā (No I didn’t draw that emerald, I stole it off the internet like normal people) And do I love the dotted pages? Yes I do!
I also might have invested in a black Sakura Pigma Micron 005 pen as well, and changed the ink in my fountain pen to neon coral pink. Yay, limited edition ink. ūüėČ

I learned a smidgeon too much about fountain pens when I was getting one for myself. I got a very affordable and great Lamy Safari limited edition 2014 in, you guessed it, neon coral.
Lets have a look at some of my spreads, shall we.

April: I still had the “old” lined book.april 17-23Above – Nice. Below – Horrible! Move on, better next week.april 24-30I found some really cute stamps! I should break out my water colours too!

May: Starting with the “old” book… Nice looking week though…may 1-7But then… Tada! New book!¬†May 8-14This is my favourite spread yet. Which is good, I’m learning.¬†may 15-21

There are monthly spreads, trackers, book lists, ekonomy and things too of course. And if you are wondering, the pink background in all the pictures is my computer lap table from IKEA wich is also my writing “desk”.
I really love this Bullet Journaling thing… five out of five fancy pens.


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Accepting the Bad Days

Learning to acceptI have to learn to accept the bad days.
This is something I am terrible at, it feels like I’m going to feel/be like this forever and I am never going to get anything done, or want to get anything done again. I might even stomp my foot and pout! I am going to lie here in my sofa that has become uncomfortable and feel sorry for myself forever. ¬†Nothing is fun, and anything I want to do quickly gets aborted because of exhaustion/pain/fever/nausea or whatever it might be today.

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I am having one of those bad days, can you tell?
Yesterday I woke up with a fever because I am allergic to pollen and all the birches (aka my nemesis) ¬†had decided to suddenly awaken. So I got a handle on that and today I don’t have a fever, I have menstrual cramps and everything that comes with that, dizziness, nausea, lack of appetite and a mild depressive state. And the pain, the horrible pain, I have got it under control but it’s not like its not there in the back of my mind (uterus) at all times. And tomorrow I know is the day I bleed the most, and I will feel much better but I know that as soon as I try to do anything I will become dizzy, nauseous and exhausted, and the best thing to do is… sit still… on the couch… again.

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This, the writing is actually helping, but that was not the point. I need to learn to humbly accept the bad days, do what I can with them, hope for better days and move on.
Humbly. Im way better at sarcastically.
As I have been researching service dogs I have come across two women that I can learn so much about this from, Jaquie from Chronically Jaquie and Mary from The Frey Life. They have service dogs because they have medical issues. I am so humbled and totally in awe about how they deal with their illnesses and their bad days. I will try to learn from them

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I have to stop comparing myself to others, well or unwell, whatever I think “society” expects of me and see to what I feel and what I can do.

I’m not sure how to go about this, right now I am mostly feeling resentful that all my weekend plans got screwed, drowned, fu cancelled, trying to breath deeply, accept the situation and be happy for the little things. This lovely cup of coffee for example, that is making me nauseous. I need to work on it. Obviously.

today suckedAfter doing some internet research I think I have come up with a loose strategy.
When reading what other people have written about “bad days” it first made me really sad, reading about people with, what I perceive as, worse things than me, and then horribly mad, reading about people who thinks that it’s all in your mind and “you just have to think positive”, excuse me, obviously they missed a whole category of people with actual problems!!
I don’t think the striking out of the words I want to say about those people will be enough… so I won’t say anything.
And then I came to a more calm and accepting stage, better right.

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So my loose strategy is.

  • To accept the situation, so, I can do those weekend plans another day.
  • Try to feel the feelings, calmly and accurately, no exaggerating or diminishing, and move on, if possible, no pressure.
  • Do things I know will make me feel better, the nature/bath/relaxing things, not the shopping/comfort eating things.
  • Try to move about, just change location, or go stand in the front door smelling the air for a while. Or as my mom says, “get some sunlight in your eyes”.
  • And do fun things that will take my mind off the bad day for a little while, like a great (not sad!) movie or a captivating computer game.
  • Don’t beat myself up about it if I fail at any of these things, as I said, move on, try again, work on it.
  • This too shall pass.
  • Breathe.

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A Helping Paw?

service dogI have recently learned that there are service dogs that can help people with mental health problems!
That was a bit of an eye opener. I thought service dogs helped blind people find the way, disabled people pick up stuff off the floor or alert diabetics that they need to take insulin. Well, it’s all of course way more complicated than that, and know that there is extensive training involved, but still, basically.

So what could a service dog do for someone who has mental health problems, like me who has Aspergers and panic issues?
They can be a calming presence that always stays by your side, and that you are allowed to bring “everywhere”. They can alert you that you are starting a stressed behaviour, and abort a panic attack by coming up and laying in your lap or demanding that you focus on them, or help you out of the attack with their calming presence.
They also make you get out of the house for someone else, it can be hard to motivate yourself to go for a walk, but when there is a cute dog that loves walks, fetching balls and otherwise will pee on your plants, there is a whole new incentive to going outside.

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I have started to learn more about service dogs in general and I am amazed at how well-behaved they are, how devoted to their owner/handler they can be and the tasks they can perform!
They give their owner a whole new level of independence and so much unconditional love, though the love part seems to be reciprocated in abundance. You are bound to get very close to a service dog because it takes about two years of training, and that means lots of training everyday, for a dog to be considered a “finished” service dog. You are a team.

I started following these two channels on YouTube that I found extremely helpful, and otherwise enjoyable in general. Where we get to follow Jaquie with service dog Harlow and Mary with service dog Oliver.
These two girls have medical disabilities but I have still been able to start imagining what a service dog could do for someone with  mental health problems.
Also I am so very humbled and impressed by their strength in fighting their illnesses.

Here are their channels:

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Jaquie and Harlow
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Here in Sweden the official training for service dogs for a neuropsychiatric disabled¬†handler is quite new, but it does exist and you can still use a lot of the parts of “normal” service dog training.
First it comes down to general obedience behaviour and then more focused training for what that particular handler needs.
There are courses, these are of course expensive, why would anything be easy. There are also grants to apply for and you can do a lot of the training yourself, with the guidance of a professional, if you are dedicated.
The dog should be one year old but not yet three when the training begins, but you can of course start to train simple commands as soon as you get your puppy, if you are getting a puppy that is.

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Good things to start practicing are:

  • Eye contact – Good contact is the basis of all other training.
  • Environmental training – let the dog be in different environments until it is calm and curious.
  • Social training – give the dog positive experiences of different kinds of people and dogs.
  • Relaxation – Train the dog in different environments and situations until it¬†spontaneously settles down and relaxes.
  • Apportion – encourage the dog to carry items and reward every time it shows you what it’s carrying.
  • A bit of the basics – heel, sit and come.

What kind of dog is suitable to be a service dog.
The breed  does not have anything to do with it, it is more about the dogs temperament, willingness to please and ability to learn. The dog should of course be appropriate in size for what you want it to do, and common service dog breeds are Labrador, Golden retrievers, Poodles and the Doodles.


I of course fell¬†for the Doodles. ūüėČ The most common ones are Golden Doodle: Golden retriever + Poodle and Labradoodle: Labrador + Poodle. These seem to make great service dogs since they have the Labrador and Goldens gentle manner and willingness to please and the Poodles high intelligence and ability to learn. Also they shed less which is great for us (yes, me) who are allergic.labradoodle
But as I stated before it all comes down to if just that individual has the right temperament for being a service dog. You can get great help choosing a potential service dog from a good breeder.

In Swedish a service dog for mental disabilities is called an NPF-Hund, (NPF står för  neuropsykiatrisk funktionsnedsättning) and here are some useful links with information about this.

This is what I found during a shallow search, I am sure there are lots more information.

All this has awakened a thought in me, and I am looking at kennels and dogs, dreaming about the possibility. labradoodlepuppy


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How can a weighted blanket help you

how can a weighted blanket help youWhen I was discussing my sleep problems with my doctor and we were going over what medication I could take and what I was already taking, she mentioned that a weighted blanket might help. I thought that it was definitely worth a try, I had read about them and knew that they helped some people settle down and be calmer.
We booked an appointment with the department that was supposed to find out if I would be eligible for getting/loaning one. I had to make a two-week sleep diary, which wasn’t a problem since I always wear a step and sleep tracker, I just had to print out the last two weeks and we could quite obviously see that I was not sleeping very good.
So then I got to test some of the blankets. I tested two kinds, one that is full of plastic balls, like in a children’s ball pit, and its huge and really I could not stop giggling because It felt like it was childhood all over again. That one was not for me. But people who like to feel pressure on parts of their body to “know they are there” can benefit from a blanket like that.
The second one I tried was a chain weighted blanket. It’s like a duvet with channels lengthwise with chains in them. This one was definitely for me, I felt sleepy and calm after just a few minutes under it. So, we ordered one of those for me.
These blankets are extremely expensive, I have an 8 kg blanket that costs 8000 kronor, about 900 dollars, it’s on loan, but it’s not like they are ever going to demand to get it back.
I sleep under 8000 kr, it’s a bit ridiculous.

chainsSo, what benefits do I get from this chain weighted blanket. I know It sounds crazy sleeping under 8 kg of chains, but It makes me feel safe, hugged, grounded, and it calms me down in stressful situations and I tend to lie more still when I’m sleeping, and not toss and turn so much. I can even get a longing just to be under the blanket during the day, not sleeping, but feeling the security and safety it gives me. It has definitely helped me sleep better in collaboration with some melatonin and a sedative.

There are three kinds of weighted blankets on the market that I know of:

bollt√§ckeThe Ball Blanket: “The weight of the balls affects the central nervous system via the comfortable pressure you feel on the body. Moving underneath the blanket creates new pressure points and thus new tactile signals to the central nervous system. The ball covers help to clarify the limits of the body”

These blankets are usually made of a duvet filled with plastic balls that come in different sizes and weights. 3-10 kg for adults and 0,5-1,5 for children.

600510The Chain Blanket: “The chain blankets function is based on scientific studies on the calming impact of gravity. Through the weight of the cover, the user gets a clearer feel of the body’s limits. The comfortable weight releases a number of body-wise hormones that seem to calm anxiety and sedation for both blood pressure and heart rate. The effect is that you can relax, and get better sleep quality.”

A chain blanket is a duvet with channels lengthwise with chains running through them, these also come in different weights, 4-15 kg for adults and 1,5-3,4 for children.

fibertacket-300x216and The Fiber Blanket: “Fiber blanket is a weighted blanket and a mind-stimulating cognitive tool. The fiber blanket is unique because it is soft and has gentle and enclosing features that gives a sense of peace and security. Unlike other weighted blankets, the fiber blanket provides an even pressure throughout the body.”

The fiber blankets are made from polyester and comes in weights from 4-14 kg for adults and 2,3-5 kg for children.

The weighted blankets are a great help for som people and I certainly recommend it.

There is also the option to make your own weighted blanket, here are some great tutorials for the diy blanket.

in-progress-held-upCalming the senses with weighted blankets.

Screen Shot 2017-04-30 at 22.47.56The Weighted Blanket: An Easy Quilting Project by Rob Appell of Man Sewing.

DIY-weighted-lap-pad-using-pillow-petP1450841-One-project-closerDIY Weighted Lap Pad Using a Pillow Pet!

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